:.to fall in love was something that my heart was dreaming of, and then came the day when i found you, heaven came to earth and you were my angel.:

heyz....tomorrow is friday. damn this week went by fast, which of course is alwayz good. skool is such a bitch. anyhowz, i miss home. still homesick as fuck. wuz talkin to my sis lei back home. damn, my dad all fell off the roof and broke his ankle or some shyt like that. good for him!! stoopid ass is all pissed at me cuz i didnt stay back there for his sorry ass. wut the fuck everz.   i miss my sis and my momma hellaz. and my grammy. *sighz* and all my frenz of course. people here are so fuckin unbelievable. so fake and shyt. thinkin they all hard core gangstas and shyt like that. cant stand it. i already had to do detention yesterday...irene-you know why. lol stupid ass rules here. so freakin retarded. hmm...what else?? ooohh i so wanted to kick this stupid haole gurl's fat ass cuz her fuckin lame ass threw a fuckin soda can at me cuz i didnt want to give her fuckin hungry fat ass a dollar!!! i swear all hell wuz gonna break loose except she had this freakin huge ass black gurl there with her that could of squashed me with juss one ass cheek so ya know, didnt wanna go down that way. lol *sighz* stupid bitch cant handle her own shyt.  well, some dramaz and stuff is goin on in my life. dunno wut the hell to do. freakin crazee ass stuff i gotta deal with, especially in my love life. *sighz* shyt alwayz gotta get all complicated and stuff. why?!?! i want rissa!!!  wellz, imma end it here for now. got some chores and stuff to do. miss ya sis hellaz!! soooo much!!! luv you chokage!!! muah!!!

:.there's something bout how you stay on my mind, there's something bout the way that i whisper your name when i'm asleep.:

its aloha friday babee!! man, i so need this weekend. skool is such a drag, i swear. anywayz, we moved into our new townhouse. its pretty nice except they freakin played us!! damn toilet wuznt bolted down so when we flushed it, all the water came pouring out. and my shower head wuznt bolted on good either so when i turned the shower on, the water shot upwards instead of downwards. and we have a huge-ass ant problem. man dats so fucked up yea?? lol crazee shyt. ala wuz pissed da fuck off. anyhowz, talked to ree-nee da other day. man i miss her hellaz. so much dramaz here. lol nah i no more. i wish i had cuz then it whud be more interesting and i'd have somethin to do. lol j/p and i miss my gurlie rissa. i really really wish she wuz here. den we'd show some ppl here real local style. lol they all be wearin dem fake-ass ugly aloha shirts and plastic leis here. i swear it drives me insane. *sighz* well, some good stuff and bad stuff has been happening lately but some of it is top secret so i no can say anything. lol nah but i guess you could say that i got me a lil dilemma. my gurlz know wut imma talkin bout. *wink wink* i guess i juss gotta wait it all out and see whats in store for me. i know that i cant rush anything tho-imma juss go wit da flow and hope everything flows my way.  wellz, imma go cuz i gotta go get ready and go wit ala somewhere. miss yallz hellaz!!! muah!!!

:.dreaming of you.:

*so confused & lonely*missin my sistahs*falling*dont know what to do*homesick*hate skool*getting fatter*hate this cold-ass weather*want cherry garcia ice cream*miss the feeling of being held by that special someone*mainland teachers sux ass-no aloha spirit*depressed*hate nightmares*no tears left for me to cry*want my momma*wish i wuz at the beach*miss my frenz hellaz*want some real local food*in desperate need of a job*weekends go by too fuckin fast*it hurts so bad to be alone*dont wanna go back to skool*is there any way to stop yourself from falling-or is it juss something you cant help??*tired*i need a damn life*wish i wuz superwoman*k gonna go sleep now*nites*muah*xoxo*

:.when i close my eyes i can still see visions of you on my mind...i pray .:

dont have to go to skool tomorrow til 9:45am...hellz yea...now i can sleep in. anywayz, still sad and depressed.  wish i wuz back home...talked to lei tonight...got to get some stuff out which helped a lot. *sighz* some shyt is juss pissing me off right now. actually, its been pissing me off and irritating the fuckin shyt outta me. imma tryin to brush it off and make like its all cool but it aint that easy. i wish it was.  gawd, i hate it when gurlz do that-fuckin throw themselves at a guy and fuckin rub up all on them. ughhh!! i cant stand that shyt!! if guyz actually rather have a gurl who does that kind of shyt, then i give up on all guyz right now-i swear. i juss want my sis rissa here wit me right now. she's my gurl and i swear if we were together, everything whud be soo much better. i miss her hellaz. *sighz* i feel like cryin so bad right now but imma hold it in...til later when everyones' asleep. den imma cry my heart out-again. i juss hate myself and i juss hate my life. maybe i aint being completely fair and i aint giving it time, but as of this moment, i juss wish i could disappear from this world and forget bout everything. the pain, the confusion, the anger...everything. wellz, i miss everyone...hope yall know that. take carez 'n' alohaz....